who is this doin' this synthetic type of alpha beta psychadelic...

any takers on the remainder of that phrase? (todd, i'm looking in your direction...)

i thought this was a cool picture...




it's really cool going through an artist's entire discography. you really get a feel for their style and themes they like (and how much they've changed over time). today's artist has been favorite of mine: The Chemical Bros. since i no longer possess any of their CDs, i decided to download their entire history of CDs. (amazing how simple that is.) what an amazing set of albums. i highly recommend it (to anyone who has not heard the Chemical Bros. the rest of you don't need the recommendation.)

9:58:33

Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer?

Because it feels so good when I stop.

you have to love great sayings. the best are the kind who's meaning doesn't take shape right away, but after a little thought, hits you like a ton of bricks. i know this one wasn't originally from Grey's Anatomy, but that's where i heard it last night.

03.17 - 03.19

thanks to everyone who came out to my st. josh's day party. i had a great time. i hope you guys did too.



and a special thanks to my amazing wife; her talents and gestures unappreciated much too often. thank you very much, jess.

(also a special overdue thanks to billiard (without who we'd never see a movie in the theater) for getting us into V for Vendetta (IMAX).



ALSO, thanks to corey for making the trek (via airplane, of course) up from Florida to visit with us. a good time was had by all.

babe, i've got to ramble

what is it about kittens that just breaks my heart? yeah they're cute, but is it just limited to that? i mean, i guess this sounds lame, but they really have a huge impact on me (and cats in general i suppose). our neighbor had 6 kittens several weeks back and has been looking to give them away. they are just the greatest bunch of little animals. i mean, when you're playing with a tiny cat, it's just like nothing else in the world matters. you have no problems in life because of this creature's presence. they just bring a joy to my life that i love. but our neighbor is giving them away today to an adoption agency thing. they sounded pretty reputable, but the thought of breaking up sibling kittens just tears me up. sure they wont remember it, but i will. and i'm just amazed at how fast i get attached to them. like that brother and sister we found last year, it was SO hard giving them away and finding the right people. i cant even tell you how happy i was when a family took both of them. man, such attachment. i mean, it's such a great feeling raising something. you're responsible for it's attitude and behavior and whatnot; such possibilities. i cant even IMAGINE how a kid must be. at least when they get older they'll realize how thankful they are they we raised them. dudley wont ever know. don't you find the concept of pets a bit odd? we shelter and feed and take care of this animal (that could survive on it's own) and in return we get the company of the animal. i think it's kind of weird. gosh i hate to see those cats go.

this is definitely one of those days that i wish i could be anywhere doing anything other than work. i just want to go home and do something i love. i'm not loving work right now. i'm bored. and when i want to work less i feel bad because everyone here work's so damn much. it's like no one realizes just how much time they're throwing away. even though it's meant to sound cheesy, i like in Planes, Trains, & Automobiles when John Candy says, "Like your work. Love your wife." i guess that could be interpretted different ways. but to me it says that the job isn't no.1 (or even no.2 for that fact). i gotta get out of here.

holy Lord, i just want to play music. and if You'll allow it, i'll use that gift for Your glory until the day i die. (amen) (please let me)


i think when i get really tired i get too introspective. or i fall asleep.

(so that was a weird entry.)

sweeeeet.

while, i dont really know what i'm going to do with these, it's pretty cool to have them.


on a different note, and what an incredible picture this is...

the Canadian Brass

...was the last musical act I saw perform at the Ryman. So, obviously my last impression of the place was nothing spectacular. However, yesterday morning Johnna called and asked me if i wanted two (2) tickets to Belle & Sebastian and the New Pornographers playing that night. this was an enticing offer considering Jess and I had been wanting to go there for several concerts last year but it was just too freakin' expensive ($50 a piece). Well, perhaps it was the fact that the tickets were free, but it was incredible. Anything you can go see at the Ryman (and afford), go. It's like watching a rock concert in an old church. The history of the place alone is incredible; the people who've played there. Both bands said how awesome it was and how honored they were to be playing there. well anyway, the shows were great. we had great seats in the balcony (which i'd recommend) and you could see everything. we didn't bring the camera (because we're doofuses) so i dont have any pictures, but you can imagine if i did, eh!?

that's all. i feel wasted (literally). i have no energy and just want to go to sleep and never wake up. so tired.

up your's, lame birthday weekend

...is what i'd be saying if this weekend had in fact been lame. however, not only was it NOT lame but it was totally sweet. i got a keyboard for by birthday (i'm in the process of getting one, more specifically, but nonetheless!) which is freakin sweet. i love guitar, but i've missed piano a lot. i've never had one of my own to play on whenever (even the one we have at home, we didnt get till i was well into college, so i wasnt around to play it much). so we went around looking at keyboards on saturday (here's what i want) so we'll see how the search goes. (that keyboard will make you pee your pants. true story.)

and then... it snowed!



just kidding. that was several weeks ago. but we did go to the Oscars (Belcourt Edition)! it was a lot of fun. the tickets were $50 a piece (i think some of that went to local charities), but after going, the price was worth it. it was all you could eat and drink all night. and like i said, when i pay for an "all you can eat/drink event", you better know my health be damned, i'm getting my money's worth. and boy did it. i EASILY drank $50 worth of alcohol. and what a variety! vodka, wine, tequila, and beer (last, of course). all while feeling relatively good the next day (relatively, mind you). and it was a lot of fun watching the oscars on the movie screen.



2 greatest moments of the 2006 Academy Awards:
1) when Three 6 Mafia won for Best Original Song
2) when Crash beat out Brokeback Mountain for Best Picture








my gosh, that 3 piece suit looks stunning. (and jesse looked totally sexy too, but don't you look at her!)




they even had free valet parking at the event! which was great because it was raining. it's neat how all your different experiences in life make you appreciate the different positions people are in. in this case i'm refering to tipping. jesse tips a lot more than normal at restaurants because she used to waitress. the same is true for me when it comes to valets. i'm more than happy to tip a valet $5 for doing a good job because i've been there and i know the effort that goes into it and i know that a $5 tip is just always really nice to get.



we have sunsets in Tennessee too, todd. ("Nice alliteration.") ("Ah thank you.")

wednesday no.2

i started this yesterday, but it just didn't happen.

i'm in a funk right now. (i think maybe jess is too. maybe she's just emotional) i dont know what it is, but i have a good idea. i think it's my birthday. for some reason i can look forward to anyone else's birthday but mine. i just feel so torn because i want to have a fun birthday but i don't want to make a huge deal out of it and expect something. so i find myself acting apathetic about something maybe i should be helping jesse "get together." man, it's like i want to help, but i feel like i'm over-stepping, but i want to have fun, but i dont want to put any pressure on jess. i don't know how to feel! i wish there was some single planable event that i could just suggest to her that we could do, but honestly, i just miss people being around. and i waited to way too late to suggest a get-together, but i guess that's all i really need. i'm sorry i'm such a indecisive doofus, jess. it's almost like i have this simultaneous fear of not feeling special and feeling like i'm being treated too special. how do you fix that?

and on top of all that "what to do," i'm trying to suggest gift ideas, but i just feel bad doing that, but then i worry that if i dont i wont feel special and then we get back into that whole thing. i think i'm a wuss.


early morning (sunrise) driving music favorites:

Bloc Party (Silent Alarm)
Radiohead (anything from Kid A or Amnesiac)
Death Cab for Cutie (Transatlantacism) (although it can be a bit of a downer, sometimes you just feel like it)
Sufjan Stevens (Come On! Feel the Illinoise!)


alternatives include:

Flaming Lips (Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots)
Fatboy Slim (Halfway Between or You've Come a Long Way)


i would've mentioned Neutral Milk Hotel but there really isn't a bad time for that so it's an automatic in. speaking of, i got this live CD of Jeff Mangum the other day after we saw Black Rebel Motorcycle Club for FREE at this record store (which was awesome). the sound quality is pretty low but the whole thing appears to have been recorded pretty spur of the moment. and since i wasn't lucky enough to see him in person, this is a nice opportunity.

we watched LOST with our neighbor, Todd, last night. that was fun. he's in his late 20s, i think. he has a cat and it just had kittens; his place is always very tidy; he has no food in his refrigerator; and he smokes very good (i'm told) pot. he's single and seems to not really like it, so we've been trying to interact with him more. plus we're always looking for a new friend. so we had Cici's and watched in slight annoyance as the girl characters displayed annoying qualities. is it just me or is LOST kind of dissapointing this season? the characters seems less... feasible in general. i was talking to bryan and we decided that the writers are walking a fine line between great writing and a possibly incoherent plot. here is a really good article on why LOST is sucking: Fan Of Science, Fan Of Faith

this whole birthday stuff makes me feel really stupid. i don't know why i do this.

oh yeah! in the mood to find new music you'll never find? check out Pandora. you just put in a band you like and it generates songs that it thinks you'll like. and it's pretty dang good too. check it out.