i went skiing this weekend. it was rainging the whole time but we still had a lot a fun. jordan's friend, warren, went with us. he's a pretty funny guy. bizarre as all get out, but funny. i love snowboarding. it's a such a fun motion. i think it's more difficult to learn than skiiing, but the payoff is great.

i had an interesting conversation with my dad on the way home regarding my recent feelings of not fitting in. basically, i came away understanding this: people go and do things that change their lives all the time; things that, in many cases, are much more extreme than mine, but they come back, hold on to their memories, tell people bits and pieces of them here and there, and go on with their lives. because that's all you can do. and i think that's a difficult thing to do because you basically have to accept that the world doesn't revolve around you and your adventures (unless you're indiana jones, i guess), but at the same time realize how amazing what you did was. i guess it's that way with a lot of things in life. i think my problem lately hasn't so much been that i've wanted everyone to be interested in the last 5 months of my life, but more that i've just needed someone to talk to and relate to about it. someone who was either there or had a similar account. because i'm more than happy to answer questions from people, but there's so much that happened and that's in my head, i'd rather not even begin trying to explain my time in hungary to someone who knows nothing of it. it's just painstaking on my part. i mean, you have to figure people are only interested in about a 30 second summary of my 4 months there. how do i even do that?

"hey! how was it??"

"it changed my life."

"great! good to have you back."

"yeah."

i don't know. i guess you just have to suck it up and press on. i guess it gives you a better understanding of others though and how they think and want to be heard. who knows?

i saw big fish last night. i thought it was great. it was one of tim burton's most "normal" movies, but you could certainly still see his creepiness in there. i think i probably missed a lot of symbolism in there, but i was kind fo tired and just happy to watch.

failed a quiz and didn't turn in my homework in on of my classes today all because i dont have a stupid book yet. i shouldve just bought it at the store (rather than ordering it) (or i shouldve ordered it earlier).

is scott back yet?

HOLY CRAP!! i just deleted this whole thing and was about to cry when i right clicked and saw that there's an "undo" option! THANK YOU, BLOGGER!