29 November 2004

And God Said

I said, "God, I hurt."
And God said, "I know."

I said, "God, I cry a lot."
And God said, "That is why I gave you tears."

I said, "God, I am so depressed."
And God said, "That is why I gave you Sunshine."

I said, "God, life is so hard."
And God said, "That is why I gave you loved ones."

I said, "God, my loved one died."
And God said, "so did mine"

I said, "God, it is such a loss."
And God said, "I saw mine nailed to a cross."

I said, "God, but your loved one lives."
And God said, "So does yours."

I said, "God, where are they now?"
And God said, "Mine is on My right and yours is in the Light."

I said, "God, it hurts."
And God said, "I know."

Author Unknown

thanks, jess.

28 November 2004

and now for what i originally got on here to do

well, the majority of my break was quite enjoyable. i got to sit around a lot, watch tv, take pictures with my 35mm camera, play Metroid Prime 2 (even though the memory card got corrupted and we lost all of our game data.), go early morning suicide shopping with my dad and brother, sort out all of my recovered Europe pictures, and eat heartily. jesse and i watched Fahrenhype 9/11. it was really great and i now have even less respect for michael moore. a good time was had by all.

however, on saturday morning we got a call. my dad's brother's son, Scott Hunter, was killed in a car wreck early that morning. well ...that was pretty much terrible. he was 37. we were really close to him, particularly my parents. he was like a son to my dad (obviously, being his brother's son). i dont think anything is harder on me than seeing my dad cry. it absolutely breaks my heart. and all i can do is just hold him. i can't even begin to know how my uncle Bob feels (he's my dad's brother). you hear it said that no parent should have to bury their child. i cannot, in fact, think of anything worse than that. my mind isnt even able to being wrapping itself around that concept. it's that terrible. when i try to imagine what i could possibly say to Bob i find myself reduced to nothing, so much that all i can even do is pray that somehow God will comfort him and help him understand that it's part of His plan, even though we may never know that plan. the reasons for death can be impossible to grasp sometimes. there have been, what seems like, a great deal of deaths recently. first, my best friend's (from franklin (adam)) brother died from cancer. he wasnt even 30. then, one of his pallbearer's died. and within the last week, a great guy from my scout troop died from a heart attack. he was great friends with adam's dad (the scout leader) and in his 50s. and just the other day my dad tells me about another dad from scouts dying (also in his 50s). and now this. i was always told how much like scott i was when i was growing up. he was a smart guy, but he was never very careful with his life. man i feel terrible for bob. he is probably one of the nicest guys i've ever known and easily one of my favorite relatives. i love bob and my heart goes out to him.

take care everyone.

stupid Haloscan and it's 1000 character limit

(sorry jess, just two more cents from me.)

(not trying to publicize this or anything, but had to post my comments here because they were too long for haloscan.)

here are the comments from the previous entry:

ouch guys. maybe we could just stop talking out subjects we aren't too knowledgeable about.

talk to each other about it, but the public doesn't need to hear propaganda. any more.

todd and scott moore.
jet | 11.28.04 - 8:41 pm | #

i guess it would be nice to hear sammantha's side of it some time. i get jesse's side of it from her blog and this blog and i mean... lets just give her more credit than to say that whatever the problem is, its definitly all her fault. neither of them are perfect individually and its clear that they arnt perfect together as roomies,,, and i would say the same thing in jesse's defense if they wernt getting along and everyone said "how could anyone not get along with samantha!?"
just my two cents
scott | 11.28.04 - 6:53 pm | #

yeah, wisdom dies with...

im not saying jesse is a crappy person, but we're all people here and we all have the right to like or dislike each other for whatever reason.

its just not true to say that everyone is as gloriously radiant as st. jesse - and knowing this, how can any of us lesser mortals be expected to understand her greatness? such knowledge is too wonderful for me. obviously.

its samantha youre talking about and shes the one talking to at least me about this, so... yeah its heavy and its personal and all that. who could just not tell anyone about that? besides pat.

let's not act like there is simply no case to be had here on samantha's part.
todd | 11.28.04 - 1:51 am | #

thanks babe. you can say whatever you want. :*
jet | 11.26.04 - 2:27 pm | #

yeah, so i think if you got another cat that was as bitchin-awesome as Big-Studley, then i think this would solve everything.

don't you?

happy turkey day joshman. PEACE!
J-MAC-asaurus | 11.26.04 - 1:05 pm | #

and here are my comments:

first off, i agree with jon.

secondly, i dont think the sarcasm is warranted, todd. i'm not saying jesse is perfect (in fact, i never even hinted at that. i said, "how COULD anyone be so upset about living with jesse??") but i would put money on jesse being easier to live with than sam anyday. i've been around them. sam isn't nice to me either. i'm quite sure she'd ignore me completely if i didnt try to say something "funny" to try and get her to smile everytime. and i'm not quite sure how you just go with everything sam says 100%. especially after you've known her for so long. i'm not saying she's a liar by any means, i just think she (as do others) has a tendency to skew things a bit in her direction (and even more than that is how you take it and present it to jesse with your spin on it). perhaps instead of coming to jesse in a provoking manner about her roommate's dislike of her, you could encourage sam to simply to TALK to jesse. no, samantha isnt completely at fault here, yes, jesse has trouble confronting people about problems between her and them, but let's just do a straight up comparison here: who do you honestly think would be harder to coexist with? because if you think it's jesse for one second, i have to think you're absolutely crazy. i dont even think sam would say jesse.

and scott, i dont really recall jesse writing that much about her situation with sam in her blog at all (with the exception of the current entry). i understand you wanting this to be fair and all, but have you talked to either one of them about this? i'm not just saying all of this from a purely outside party view. i'm up there in their room from time to time (although i generally try to never be there when sam is because it seems to give her more to complain to jesse about), and what i'm talking about isnt just speculation off what i've heard. it's also what i've observed. and no, the fault doesnt lie entirely on sam, but... let's just put it like this, i honestly can't imagine anyone ever asking "how could anyone not get along with samantha!?" without expecting a laugh afterwards.

thanks for reading. hope you guys had fun in old Lone Star this weekend.

23 November 2004

see post below

so jesse mentioned something yesterday that seemed to be bugging her (just a tad). and it wasnt anything new, but it certainly was puzzling. it was something along the lines of "how can sam dislike living with me so much?" and more than that, how can she dislike it so much that she talks to others about it instead of talking to jesse (who those others are, we'll probably never know). what IS this?? i kept thinking about this notion (like i friggin HATE to do), but only got more and more confused. how COULD anyone be so upset about living with jesse?? this would be like me complaining about living with scott... all the time... to everyone but scott. it's that absurd. of course people have differences, and will disagree at times, but there's no excuse after 3 years of living together. this is just stupid.

i always feel like i cant say anything about stuff in jesse's life to anyone but jesse (because said "things" did not occur to me firsthand), but holy crap, where do you draw the line between being "courteous" to others and being concerned and caring for the one i love.

16 November 2004

second thoughts

i've been thinking more about those websites. i like that they're creating a medium for (relatively) positive interaction between peoples of the world, however, i dont like the motivation behind it. i dont like that everyone else in the world thinks that 51% of us are a bunch of Christian know-nothings. obviously i dont mind the Christian part (duh), but the fact is, THEY are the ones who dont know all the facts. not that anyone could know all of them (duh again) but i think there are a lot of things they have no idea of. not to mention the fact that a lot of them aren't Christians and therefore don't have the same values as many of us do. so yeah, it's great that the democrats/liberals in our country are apologizing on the rest of our behalfs, but i dont like the message that it sends about the rest of us.

here are 2 maps of interest. it just doesnt even look close.

the one on top is by state, while the one on the bottom is by county.

that's a lot of redneck born-again-Christians.

and these were just too good to leave off...
-robodump 1.0
-new citroen c4

everybody's sorry

i guess a lot of you have seen www.sorryeverybody.com. it's pretty funny. and apparently it's inspired a few spinoffs such as...




while i dont feel any need to apologize to the world for our actions and our president, i find it pleasing to see people all around the world communicating with each other in a relatively peaceful manner. it shows those who dont understand it, that we're all people (even the french :) ). no matter where we are. i think everyone forgets that. we only see/hear about the actions of everyone elses government and we forget that governments tend to not be entirely representative of it's people.

i dont know. it's just nice to see.

oh, and odb died. that's weird.

03 November 2004

josh hunter, m.d.

so i'm pretty much the best stitch removing guy i know. i was sitting at bible study tonight messing with my stiches, when i realized, i dont need to go to the doctor to get these taken out. i can do it myself. and oddly enough, i could and did... without producing further injury! not that it was difficult. i just pulled out my multitool, opened out the miniscissors and snipped away. i rule.



(pretty good pictures too! i had the stitches in for a week.)

i'm sort of tired of hurting myself, so i think i'm gonna try and stop. however, i did realize tonight that i've had virtually no back pain since i stopped doing marching band.

what a deal.


02 November 2004

osama says...?

straight from the horses mouth ...or whatever it is they say.

i was with him right up until the "And Allah is our Guardian and Helper, while you have no Guardian or Helper" part.

now i just plain dont like the guy.

i wonder if his michael moore write his speeches.